Monday, October 28, 2013

Sadness in Happiness...


Last weekend we traveled to Texas to attend the funeral of my nephew Goodwin. The loss of his life was desperately sad. He was coming to a family who wanted him dearly. His crib was set up... his newborn clothes were washed and folded and put into his drawers. The grandparent's plane tickets were bought and the sister's drawings for him filled the house. The beginning of his life was quickly approaching...

But in some moment along the way his heart stopped and a precious soul that somehow didn't belong in our world returned to his home....he was beautiful...

I had so many thoughts and insights over this sweet and sad time. At some points, my brother-in-law or sister-in-law said different things that struck me so deeply I had to work hard to keep my feelings in check because I didn't want to detract from them. Among those moments was the reaffirmation that even in happiness we have deep sadness. And that is okay...we learn and grow so much in sadness while would we ever want happiness all the time? ;)

Despite this beautiful world, despite the goodness and kindness and love, despite all our blessings and the wondrous joys God has given us and despite our undying gratitude to our Father and our unwavering faith in His plan....we still have times of immense pain and sorrow. Our happiness and our sadness exist together. Happiness and sadness are intertwined throughout our journey in mortality and life's experiences can exchange one for the other in a moment. Yet...there is a peace in Christ. It is not a "happiness" nor does it remove our sadness but it carries us until our journey's end...

In French the word adieu means "to God" and so dear Goodwin we bid you to God...adieu sweet one...adieu...